I don't want to mask any more. I can stumble my way through social situations, usually without revealing the fucking nightmare I'm experiencing. I fuck up, and it sucks, but I can usually manage... But, my masking is successful enough that even my wife (who is also #AuDHD ) doesn't see it. She sees the mask and things I'm enjoying myself while she is having a terrible experience. I fucking hate this. I don't want to do this.